Please help me... i feel like dying?

i been to psychiatrist twice now, i told my doctor about the neighbor noise at night and i am only getting 4 hours of sleep everyday, i showed him the recorded videos and audio and he prescribed me with clonazepam 2mg and risperidone 2mg and my life changed after talking those pill i having very low mood, lost my appetite, sucidal feeling , easily get bored and depressed along with suicidal feeling, please tell me what to do now, i feel so empty and dont wanna live anymore and my next appointment to vist the doctor is on 5th of july should i tell him and i dont wanna take lexapro.